Unconditional

The air that I breathe.. The smell of the tulips.. Nothing is ever the same again.

My mind shifts vigorously whenever that phrase appears. My temporal lobe, though might be weary is still contaminated by it. Contaminated in the sense that it is forever stored in it. Those words, excruciating me. Yes, it stripped off my dignity. No matter how hard I fought, I find myself drowning with those words. I do not know what I did to deserve such remarks. Was it a gimmick to spun me away from where I am now? I couldn't find the answers.

As I tried to be positive and reasoned myself in various ways, I placed myself in other's shoes and finding for the right comforting words. My conscience was clear and I had nothing to hide. But what slammed me was the reaction that I got in return. It weakened my soul, making me feeling like a fool that always cared so much for others rather than myself. Sighs. I felt blunt. I don't know what are the options that are left with me. What hurt me most was the episode ended in a weary way. Everything moved on but I was left wounded, as if nothing ever happened. I grasp for the slightest thing that was left in me. My pride.

Please forgive me for leaving this way. I cannot blame you but myself. I chose to love and care, unconditionally. I chose to take the pain, without hesitation. I chose to leave, without looking back... ever again.

Somehow or rather, I know we will meet again someday. And as time goes by, my prayers are still with you. It never stops. That's how much I value us.