Got home about 10 tonight. It was tiring. All those assignments were a test of patience and language. I wish I could do better. I wish my language is somewhat more impressing. Sighs. I have been staying focus on the task that is ahead of me, while trying to identify which matters are more significant to me right now. I am glad I did not break down and went awry during these times. It was not easy, having to juggle tons of thoughts that appeared in the same time. Going for a jog will definitely help lessen the burden off the shoulder, but was that the best solution that one should think of? I've tried practicing meditations, but half way through, those thoughts just blundered in. I am sick of this feeling inside me. I just want to empty everything that's in my mind. Some believe that it's easy. Snap your fingers and it's gone. Does this makes me a loser that can't seem to face the fact? Or does it makes me a stronger person mentally? I need to take a break and find my track again. I really have to let go those thoughts and feelings before I crash one fine day.
I keep thinking that I'm doing just fine. But when things appeared and proved me wrong, the feelings haunted my thoughts again. I am so lost. All I could do is just to pray for wisdom and strength.
When will these thoughts go away?
