It's almost 5 in the morning. Tried closing my eyes to get some rest but in vain. Yes, something bothers me very much. Even when I dreamt of you, the message stood still as if we were in reality. I am speechless right now. I just don't know how to express myself like how I used to. The gap that we talked about continues to walled us... I don't know if you realized that too. I want to be frank, I want to stand by you whenever you needed someone. I just want to borrow you my time, no matter how long it takes to see you being happy again. But deep down inside, I know the long silence between us has made us grown apart. I just wish the "balcony hours" stays fresh in your memories. Those times when we could just talked about anything, everything.

I have to admit, I felt upset seeing the pain that you are going through. Please don't get me wrong. There isn't any hidden intentions that causes this feeling. It's not the feeling that I once had. I hope you understand my thoughts right now.

I know the pain is unbearable. I just wish that there is something that I could do to carry your tears away.

Fizzles..

It is not about winning or losing. There is no definite winner or loser in it. Equilibrium? I guess it is something that cannot be measured.

Enjoy the process of loving someone without making any calculations, any hesitation, any doubts. That matters most.